RIPPLE EFFECT

This wasn’t meant to be my next blog, but when does life ever go as planned? I have to admit, I didn’t expect my Cold Turkey blog to cause such a… famous people make splashes, so I think ripple will suffice. I’ve had some concerned phone calls, questioning emails and a couple of enquiring text messages. This blog is nothing at all against the people who contacted me in the least. This is more an observation if you will…

I believe, and this is only my opinion because I could not possibly know the true motivation of a person. However, I believe some people read that blog and look upon it as a reflection of my interaction with them or couldn’t separate our history to read it as it should be read. This is my decision which was made with me in mind first and foremost.

I am sure it was shocking to read such an open and vulnerable account of where I’m going in my life and what I am attempting to leave behind. For quite a long time, I’ve spent a more time building barriers than bridging them. I can comprehend the range of thoughts it might have stirred in people who know me intimately, makes complete sense on every level. For people to mistake this trip as one they were invited on? Well, that’s something else. This blog is only a window, a glimpse and nothing more. I decided to make MY experiences public so it will keep me all the more honest in the coming days. I can fool some of you, but not all of you.

Now, I’m not saying I’m walking this path alone. I sincerely hope my friends and family will accompany me on this journey. But, the direction, pace and incentive are purely mine and mine alone. I am inspired to be a better me. No, I am inspired to be a great me, my definition of great, not anyone else’s. You have no say so in defining my life as I should have no say so in defining yours. Me being too concerned about what others think in the first place contributed to me being blown off course.

If MY blog caused you some confusion, stress, anger or resentment than I suggest you consider your own internal pilgrimage. If reading MY blog caused you to nod your head in admiration then, stand on the sideline and cheer me on, walk with me when I seem to need a friend or hand me some Gatorade when you see I’m faltering. Better yet, provide a brotha with some free porn cause that’s as close as I get to sex for another 86 days!

Word of advice, look below the surface. If you truly know me, you know how strong-willed I am. I put my mind to something I always accomplish it, FUNomenal GmbH thank you very much. No sex is only a small part of the equation, there is something more grandiose I want to achieve.

While you’re trying to figure out what that is, I’ve got some growing to do.

Day 4, and the journey continues…